okay. so its teachers day eve..yah, so wish all teachers a happy teachers day bah.

morning got to see mr ong sing solo loh. not bad lah. at least for a teachers' standard. he sang tong hua. den he sing half way invite his form class up. so nice of him..that will bond the class alot..

den had folk dance..hahax. no one wore sarongs we were STRONGLY ENCOURAGED to wear. i tink dey failed..but it was fun overall lah. at least i tried to have fun and not be sian lah. den at some points cant even hear d music, cos people too loud le..

HAD CLASS PARTY!!

dunno if it met my expectation or not, cos i didnt realli have any. n decorations was pretty plain. jus balloons n the whiteboard. but erm. it doesent realli matter loh..food was alright. i tink the highlight of the entire party was the fantastic music video by zhixin. realli beautifully done, though the com was a little lag. but it was good overall , n i tink the teachers enjoyed it. which was good of cos..

thanks again zhixin..

after sch went back to pri sch, onli to realised we had to wait outside cos the security guard didnt want to let us in. onli arnd 12 den let us in..den go find teachers n see pri sch frens. alot of dem change alot n alot le...some i oso cannot regonise liao. n some i oso forgot their names. tt's bad..

hmm. though tmr's a holiday, i tink i wanna study. i dunno y, but d word "study" keeps on appearing in my mind..it has nv been like that before loh. wonders wad's happening. im realli aiming to do well in exams..its really really vital.

jiayou all.

and erm. u rock my world.

ive finally understood wat freedom is....and it feels great.

okay. common test over le..good

i tink i realli wanna go enjoy myself le. dunno wat ive been doing dis entire year. but i definetly have not been spending my secondary 2 life d way i have wanted it to. it shouldnt be dis way loh..

so from now on, since ct is over. i shall enjoy my life d way i want to do so. i shall not base my desicions on wat others says n do wat i dun like to do..

n can d sch stop having remedials n stuff in d afternoon..i hate it

n most importantly, my passion for it is diminishing quickly...very very quickly. sian

common test almost over le. dunno if its gd or bad. hiya. one last maths tmr..work hard bah everyone, its gonna be over soon. had eng n physics todae. eng, i tink too much time le, n was quite ez to write. but i doubt i'll do very well lah. science arh, was okay. i like d drawing or lenses..give free marks de. but i nv study refraction, or rather forgot wat ive studied bout refraction, so tt ques i tink gone le lah...nvm. forget it.

got end of year exam timetable le. next month leh. veh fast..but there's sth i realli like bout d timetable..hahax

been going out with hs n dicky n stanley for d past 3 days. veh crappy...hahax. but had lots n lots of fun..

yah okay. we're out of nationals. n its like. we played quite terribly in dis 2 games. esp d one against woodgrove. cld hv won tt, but 4 some reason, we played so lousily. hiya. den aginst gess, we were nv expected to win tt game. but in the end instead of losing with honour, we lost with shame. we cannot leave d competition thinking tt we lost tough, we cannot walk out with our heads high..cos we played like shit. i tink got few reasons for such lousy performances loh...

1) Lack of desire

i tink we all didnt plae with d kind of heart n attitude as we played in the last 3 matches of d 2nd round. i dun tink we wanted to advance to d 2nd round of nationals as much as we wanted to get into d semis of west zone. those matches was we were realli willing to run n hv 110% concentration on d court. as compared to nationals, we didnt want it as much. d extra motivation wasnt there...

2) 3rd in west zone

i tink getting 3rd in west zone got into us a little. there was like hangover, cos we didnt realli expect to get 3rd. n i believe when nationals started, some of us were still tinking bout d west zone, though we're not supposed to. we were supposed to enitirely focus on nationals. Also, we were a little contended with wat we had n didnt wanna strive 4 more..

3) attitude

alot of us were quite lazy on court. the match against gess realli showed us how poor we r loh..their passing so fast. den sometimes dey pass d ball liao. i still dunno wat is happening. den like a little lan3 san4 on court. i tink one sentence mr chen said tt realli made sense. "some of u in d court dont seem to be playing d game, but rather watching d game". made alot of sense...

hmm. we hv one more game next next thurs...we'll redeem ourselves...

jiayou...